This album was my life from 2015 until COVID changed the way we percept our entire world in early 2020. I actually have no idea how I found this album. Was it an internet article? Youtube recommendations? A friend recommended it to me? Okay, the last one I know is not it, because my generation knows jack shit about art and anything remotely associated with art. Al' jebiga, kakva država, takav narod. All I know is that this album was on my phone, downloaded from some shoddy website onto my Huawei phone sometime early in my high school days. From that point on, every morning, walking to school along a river that flows next to my school listening to this album, from „Kiss Another Day Goodbye” to “Angel of Mercy”, and then returning home and listening “Life and Times on the Beach” to “Midnight Willie” and finishing the album whilst my mother cooked dinner for the family. Almost every day, the same routine, with a few variations in my musical queue, that this album was responsible for. This album was partially responsible for me finding The Sound, listening to Iggy Pop and the Stooges, discovering Jeff Buckley and his father, and liking Kafka’s and Camus’ books (which was sacrilege to say among your peers, I would later come to find out), enjoying the art of Basquiat and Picasso (which was ALSO sacrilege) so on and so forth. That led me to be the good ole high school outcast and a closeted sociopath, by peanut brain high schooler standards. You know the one: actually taking a liking to what the teacher tells us about different writing styles, motives, et cetera, hating modern kitsch that dominated the airwaves, forming a duo with a friend a la Simon and Garfunkel but with Garfunkel (me) playing some shitty ass drums which all in all didn’t last long, but was fun. I didn’t go to prom, instead, I was finishing the book I was writing for a while now, influenced somewhat by Joy Division, The Sound, and Kauffman and Caboor. So those were my high school days, a loser by modern societal standards, but I didn’t feel like a loser. I had Kauffman and Caboor, what else would I need!
Then came college. I was bumping Metallica, Megadeth, Neil Young, Mravi, Darkwood Dub, Coltrane, Davis, and yours truly, Kauffman and Caboor. I found a niche group of like-minded people and we all exchanged albums, talked about art and music, visited local venues, having adolescent fun.
Then COVID hit, and everyone drifted away. Some people changed their orientation, some showed how much of an ass they actually were, new faces shuffled through my circle, none staying that much but most devastating, Kaufmann and Caboor had left my rotation, for some reason. Since COVID hit, I felt anxious, ill, and devastated. My hair started to fall off, and I became depressed and moody and shut myself out. An extremely shitty period. Until tonight, when I was rummaging through RYM and found my Kaufmann and Caboor and all the memories came back flooding whilst I'm sitting alone in my rented apartment, listening to this god awful, gut turning, tear-jerking masterpiece of an album. The walks, the book writing, the Simon and Garfunkel foolery, so on and so forth, all came returning to me this faithful night.
I felt whole again, for the first time in a while.
Thank you Mr. Caboor and Mr. Kauffman, for lighting up this depressing weekend.